My sick little baby...

Hailey was sick today (okay, it's July 1st now, but I mean June 30th).

She laid around all day, she laid in my bed and watched Yo Gabba Gabba over and over... She danced a little bit, but after that she laid back down again... Her stomach was upset, and coming out both ways... Sorry for all of the information, it's mainly for me to look back at and know that she was sick.

Anyway, here is how she was today...

Oh and she was so hot and sweaty all day... I felt so bad for her... Her temperature wasn't really high, but I gave her some tylenol... :( I hope she feels better very soon.

I want a phone...

I own 3 phones... One is an alltel phone, I can't use it because I don't have service on it, and don't have $35 for activation and minutes... The other two are the government phones, one I can't find the charger to and it's disconnected, and the other one is broken. lol

I fail at life.

I miss having a phone and being able to text if I want to, or call someone if I want or need to...

Idk.

Day Thirteen – Your views on drugs and alcohol

I don't care what other people do... I don't want to be around drunk people or alcoholics, it's ridiculous how ignorant they act... If they can't hold their own, they shouldn't drink at all.

I don't want to be around any drugs, I don't care if you smoke weed, don't smoke it around my child.

Ya know, as long as the drugs or drinking isn't around my daughter I don't care.

p.s. FUcK you.

Day Twelve – Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

I'm currently engaged... I love him with half of my heart, the other half of course goes to Hailey... but they're both my world and I can't imagine life without them. I love you Randy!! & little miss midget too!!!

Day Eleven – What’s in your makeup bag?

I have:
An Eyelash Curler
A Broken Mirror
Little Scissors
Baby Nail Clippers
Blistex Medicated Mint Chapstick
Eyebrow Shadow
Clear Lip Gloss (I only use for pictures)
A Bikini Razor (I use for my eyebrows)
2 Different Eyeshadow Compacts?
Orange Eyeliner
Green Glittery Eyeliner
Black  Eyeliner
White Eyeliner
Olay Definity Color Recapture Foundation
Acne Eliminating Spot Gel

I also have mascara and 2 bottles of hand sanitizer, but I didn't take put them in the picture.

Marlboro Ashtray...

An ashtray from Marlboro came today. I like it.

Some pictures from yesterday... Randy & Hailey watching Yo Gabba Gabba together, so cute.

Check out how hard Hailey's concentrating.

I love this, sleepy time <3

She likes hamburgers :)

This was before Randy came upstairs.

It's almost midnight...

I'm not even tired. Hailey Shell is asleep.

Nothing is really new, oh found out that nevermind, I can't make that public news yet.

Umm, let's see... Seriously, nothing is new. My life is lame. I'm 21 years old damn it, I want to feel 21 and do more.

Not saying I don't want my lover and my midget though, just want to do more too :)

I wonder if I can get Randy to go get me a milkshake from checkers? lmfao.

My Latest Tattoo...

Let's hope it sticks this time. I did it.

Starting out...

A little more done...

In the process, inked up :)

 Almost finished...

All done <3

Oh and just so you know, this isn't something I just decided to do... Especially since I'm 21... I just wanted to fix the one I did when I was 15... I should have taken before pics.

Tattoo Ideas!

Okay, I'm thinking of tattoos that I want... I currently have only one tattoo, well I have a flower and an S that you really can't see... Here is a picture of the one I have that you can see :)

Here are a few that I really like...

This is a chrysanthemum. It's Hailey's birth flower.

 I want this on my foot... Maybe even both feet.

I'd also like some tiny music notes incorporated too.

I want something like this, I love it.

More Sianna.

Why not look at more of me? <3

Skipping Days...

      Just in case you have noticed, I keep skipping days on the 30 day blog challenge... I don't mean to, I just normally don't get to get online until like right at midnight and forget to do the whole blogging thing.

      Anyway, I've been missing my niece today... It's crazy, I love her so much... Her mom is psychotic, so we don't get to see her... Here are some pictures...

This is Karleigh, my niece (the older one)

& Hailey, my daughter.

She's such a wonderful, smart, vibrant angel. 

Aunt Sianna misses and loves you Karleigh.

Karleigh loves Hailey so much.

One day, hopefully they will be able to play again.

Hailey misses you too Charlee.

"Charlee" has always been my nickname for Karleigh.

She even prefers it.

Day Ten – A photo of your favorite place to eat.

The picture says it all.

Day Nine – A photo of the item you last purchased.

Route 44 Sweet Tea. <3

Day Eight – A song to match your mood.

I really don't know if this is the mood I'm in, I just can't get this song out of my head.

Day Seven – Your dream wedding.

NONE.

Seriously, I can't think of any type of wedding that would be "for me" or my "dream wedding"

No wedding is a perfect one.

Day Six – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

a cotton top tamarin

Hello New Things!

I got to buy Hailey things today... It wasn't much, but I'm so proud. lol

I'm excited, now we can brush our teeth together (again. Her other toothbrushes were lost). The dominoes and seat I'll give her on her birthday, I'm not in a rush for her to be trained anyway... She's too little :)

I do like my eyes...

I have my daddy's eyes... I'm the only one out of 6 children that have my dad's eyes.

Day Five - How important you think education is...

 I honestly feel like education is important... The more educated you are, the better you look in society. That's just my opinion though...

I stopped going to school when I was 16 due to personal reasons, I was going to be homeschooled again... My grandmother ended up passing away, and my family moved to Texas... I wanted to go, but didn't... I wanted to stay with Randy, and I'm honestly terrified of change. Any changes.
         When my daughter starts school, I'm determined to go back and get either my high school diploma, or my G.E.D! I'd rather have my high school diploma, I don't remember much about what went on in school, and I suck at math...
          Anyway, after I get one or the other I'm going to start college. I've been thinking about careers, and I think I've decided that I want to be a pediatric nurse. I love children, and to help them in to the world, help them with the first few days of their life or more, and to be nice and actually be there for the mothers giving birth would be awesome...
          When I was in the hospital after having my daughter, I was so amazed by one nurse who was there for me, and super nice the whole time... and she was amazing with Hailey, I actually trusted her with my little bug, long enough to rest...

That's her back there...

Now, there was another nurse, who was terrible... She waited 5 hours before calling my doctor or the anesthesiologist to fix my epidural, she kept telling us that she called him and he was on his way, but she never left the room... and she kept putting pitocin (sp?) in my IV, even though my contractions were lasting 15 minutes or longer at a time, my epi. was out, and she acted like it was a big deal when the doctor told me I was going to have a csection. I was in pain, screw her.

Anyway, thanks for listening to me ramble once again...

Bottom line, I think education is important to get where and what you want in life.

Story

Once upon a time there was a little girl that was sitting with her mom... They had a make over day, went out to eat, got their nails done and were finally home... The little girl was looking in her mom's pocket book, because like every little girl she wanted to know what her mom had in there...
    While she was looking in her mom's pocketbook, she stumbled across her mom's license... She looks up at her mother and says "mom..." Her mother says "What is it, dear?" The little girl replies with "I know why daddy left you..." Her mom quickly replies with "What are you talking about?" The little girl says "See? You got a F in sex, says so right here on your license... Even the license maker knows."
     Her mother laughs and explains "Oh honey, that word "sex" is the same as gender, the "F" means female..."
 The little girl replies, "then why did daddy leave you mommy?" "He left so he could be a clown in the circus of aids in Hepatitis Land." The little girl replies with "oh, okay mommy."
      Later that week, the little girl's father shows up to let her stay the weekend with him... He picks her up and as they are riding in the car the little girl asks "What are we going to do this weekend daddy?" Her father says "We're going to go to the circus..." She says "aren't you there enough daddy? Mommy told me how you left us for the circus to get some aids" The father spits out his drink, "what did you just say!?"
      The little girl says "I don't want to go there, I know what aids is, and I don't want it... You can have it for yourself..." Her father turns the car around and heads back towards his ex-wife's house... When he gets there him and his daughter walk up to the door, he knocks but gets no answer... The little girl turns the door knob and it opens, they walk in...
      They walk up the stairs, the little girl yelling "Mommy! We're back again!" The little girl runs up to her mother's bedroom door and opens it... They both see what seems to be a clown and her mother yelling "Give it to me you goofy son of a bitch!! If my ex knew he had aids, he'd kill me..." followed by a laugh.
       The father slowly walks back down the stairs, the daughter follows... "What's wrong daddy? I thought you left to get aids, now since you have some can you come back home?" The father yells out at the mother, "Trina!! Come down here now!!" She quickly rushes down the stairs, with clown makeup all over her face...
       "What is it? What's wrong?" she says...  "I hope you know your daughter just seen your freak show you were putting on... It's nice to know I have aids. Thanks for that." He replies. "What? It was an act... That's always how we role play..." Says Trina.
        "It's true daddy, sometimes the police man is in her room, and he arrests her but I can't cry because it's just fake... They're just playing. Don't be upset." Says the little girl...


I don't know where all of this shit just came from, but I honestly have no idea how to end it... It started out and it was supposed to be funny, but now it's pretty sad... lol

Oh well, my mind wonders.

Toads are murderers...

They hop around your yard planning to kill their next victim...

 You never think about it, but it's true... They are small, look innocent, never bother you, and the worst you ever think about them is if they pee on you, you'll get warts... but if you seriously sit and think about it, they are cold blooded killers. They hop around preying on innocent victims.

It's true.

I think we should all retaliate...

Or we could make mutant toads to eat the others...

Or maybe we should just make music with them...

I seriously hate myself...

This is better...